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Saturday, November 15, 2008 ; 15:23Y

& Give me the love i never had

; 15:13Y

& Give me the love i never had

Monday, November 10, 2008 ; 22:49Y

& Give me the love i never had

dear all,
i really don't mean to be emo. and i don't mean to be an emo kid. but please do not judge me without knowing what i have gone through. there are lots of things which happened to me but you do not know about it.
the hurt and pain i'm suffering no one understands.
you might say that i'm crazy.. i'm siao.. i'm mentally ill..
yes.. sometimes what i do you might not understand why i do it..
sometimes it might not be appropriate..
sometimes i act lame..
you want to know the reason why?

i'm trying to be cheerful..
cos i feel that being lame helps me to forget some of the pain..
if you want to join in the lameness.. you are welcome to join in the lameness and have fun together..
it's ok that you might not want to join in the lameness.. but i really hope that you'll respect the lameness.
if any of me lameness offended you, please let me know ya.. cos we can talk things out.. there's no need to scold.

i'm still stuck in the valley of despair and hurt..
lameness is like " wings" for me to try to escape from the valley of despair and hurt.
i may appear big and strong..happy go lucky.. but in actual fact.. i'm bleeding in the inside.
i have suffered a great fall and crippled.. now.. all i need is encouragement.. help me stand up on my own 2 feet again.. a cheerful blender emerges.

i am counting to the day when a whole new cheerful blender the pineapple.. smiling and cheerful.. free from the hurt. but when will the day come? on the day when i die?

P.S i'm not scolding anyone. please do not get me wrong. this are just words from the bottom of my heart.

; 22:12Y

& Give me the love i never had

hey all! supposed to be doing reports but i'm still updating.. (tsk tsk tsk! blender.... naughty!)

ok.. firstly, recently i've been receiving phone calls.. people asking what on earth happened to blender
" *gasps! blender! what happened? why are you sho damn freaking pissed?"
" OMG! pineapple! i never know that you can be sho pissed off till the extend that you start swearing and cursing like no one's business!"

DUH! I WAS FREAKING PISSED! AND I UNTIL NOW.. YES.. NOW.. CAN'T BELIEVE THAT SUCH STUPID LAME ASS THING LIKE THIS HAPPENED!

if any of you peeps would like to know what eva happened.. here's what happened.

FRIDAY NIGHT:

KERNA SCOLDING LIKE TOTAL HELL JUST BECAUSE OF...... 1 MISS CALL FROM THIS STUPID LAME ASS GUY!
C'MON! IT'S JUST A PHONE CALL AND ACTUALLY WHEN I ANSWERED THE PHONE.. HE HUNG UP! SHO... IT'S NOT MY FAULT BUT I KERNA SCOLDING AND COLD TREATMENT FOR LIKE.. MORE THAN 12HRS! WHAT IS THIIIISSSS MAN?! RIDICULOUS SIA! IT'S NOT THE FIRST TIME THIS GUY AND HIS FELLOW PEEPS CAUSED ME TO KERNA SCOLDING FOR NOTHING LORS.
YA!RIGHT... OUTSIDERS ARE ALWAYS RIGHT AND INSIDERS ARE NOT.
WAS TOO PISSED AND UPSET TO SLEEP. STAYED UP 1.30- 2.00AM TO STUDY.. DO MY MINDMAPS.
SATURDAY:
MORNING.. COLD TREATMENT CONTINUES UNTIL AFTER TALKING THAT BANGLA WORKER ( HE'S ONE OF THE GUY'S PEEPS)WHO CAME AND CHECK OUT THE REPAIR WORK. I WAS THERE EATING MY BREAKFAST.. AND I OVERHEARD THE CONVERSATION.. OOH! HE'S GOING BACK TO HIS HOMETOWN.. THEY WERE WORRYING ABOUT HIS WELFARE.. FINE.. GUESS WHAT?! SUDDENLY COLD TREATMENT STOPPED COS I WAS NEEDED TO PACK MY OLD CLOTHINGS.
" GO AND SEE WHICH CLOTHES YOU CANNOT WEAR. IF IT'S TOO SMALL GO PACK IT. COS HE'S GOING BACK TO HOME TOWN AND SO I'M GIVING THE OLD CLOTHINGS TO HIM TO BRING BACK."
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? COLD TREATMENT STOPPED COS OF HIM AND HIS WELFARE? PLEASE LA! I STAYED UP UNTIL 2AM AND IT'S LIKE.... NOT EVEN ONE QUESTION LIKE
" YOU STAY UP SO LATER TO STUDY.. TIRED?"
SHIT LA! OMG! LUCKILY I WAS DAMN QUICK.. MY FOOTBALL JERSEY WAS BEING PACKED INSIDE AND I MANAGED TO PUT IT BACK TO MY CLOSET. PLEASE LA! I HAO BU RONG YI MANAGED TO GET A FOOTBALL JERSEY LA! (COS NOT ALLOWED TO WEAR SUCH THINGS) OTHERWISE I WILL GET ETERNALLY PISSED LA!
COLD TREATMENT TOTALLY SUBSIDED IN THE EVENING.

SUNDAY:
EVERYTHING WENT OK. STARTED TO LOVE TO DO WEEDING. WEEDING IS FUN OK!
EVERYTHING WENT FINE.. UNTIL... IN THE AFTERNOON..
ANG MO NEIGHBOUR AGAIN.. THEY AGAIN KICKED THEIR STUPID BALL TO MY PLACE. ONCE THEIR SSTUPID BALL LAND INTO MY PLACE.. THEY'LL START RINGING MY DOORBELL.. IF I IGNORE.. THEY'LL KEEP RINGING IT .. THEN THEY STARTED TO KICK AND BANG ON MY GATE AND SCREAMING..
SHIT EM LA!
I SHOUTED AT EM: " OI! DIAM LA! SI BEI CHAR SI NANG!"
THEY DID NOT CARE.. AND CONTINUED TO IRRITATE ME FURTHER..
" WA LIAOZ! DIAM LA! SHIT YOU! @#$%! (ALL THE HOKKIEN VULGARITIES)!!!!"
OMG! I DON'T KNOW HOW LONG WILL THEY BE RENTING THE HOUSE? AND I CANNOT EVEN IMAGINE HOW CHRISTMAS WILL BE LIKE? WILL I BE ABLE TO REST IN PEACE (COS ON 17TH DEC GOT SURGERY AND THE PAIN AND SORENESS WILL LAST FOR ABOUT 10 DAYS)? UNFORTUNATELY.. MY MOUTH WILL BE TOO SORE AND PAINFUL TO CURSE AND SWEAR AT EM. =( NEVERMIND.. WE SHALL SEE HOW..

THAT'S ALL!

Sunday, November 2, 2008 ; 21:45Y

& Give me the love i never had

HAPPY B DAE TO MY DEAR BELOVED BLENDER!!!! :D

HAPPY B DAE TO MR ANDREY TAN!! :D

haha! blog's dead.. now revived by b dae blender..

hmmm..... how's like being one yr older?

okay.. first of all...

i'll like to thank my BELOVED and WONDERFUL class PS0803!!!

YES! cos they were the kind souls who made my b dae very special.. cos it has been 10 FREAKING LONG YEARS since i last celebrated my b dae.

yup! but it was celebrated in advanced.. and it really took me by surprise..

oo! now i know where they bought the cake! FOUR SEASONS! YUMMY! :P

THANKS KAR AND LAO NIANG FOR THE CAKE! IT WAS REALLY DELICIOUS! :D

secondly.. happy b dae to mr andrey!

oi! now one yr older liaoz! stop being a sissy ku ku ya! lol! jkjk!