Monday, November 10, 2008 ; 22:49Y
& Give me the love i never had
dear all,
i really don't mean to be emo. and i don't mean to be an emo kid. but please do not judge me without knowing what i have gone through. there are lots of things which happened to me but you do not know about it.
the hurt and pain i'm suffering no one understands.
you might say that i'm crazy.. i'm siao.. i'm mentally ill..
yes.. sometimes what i do you might not understand why i do it..
sometimes it might not be appropriate..
sometimes i act lame..
you want to know the reason why?
i'm trying to be cheerful..
cos i feel that being lame helps me to forget some of the pain..
if you want to join in the lameness.. you are welcome to join in the lameness and have fun together..
it's ok that you might not want to join in the lameness.. but i really hope that you'll respect the lameness.
if any of me lameness offended you, please let me know ya.. cos we can talk things out.. there's no need to scold.
i'm still stuck in the valley of despair and hurt..
lameness is like " wings" for me to try to escape from the valley of despair and hurt.
i may appear big and strong..happy go lucky.. but in actual fact.. i'm bleeding in the inside.
i have suffered a great fall and crippled.. now.. all i need is encouragement.. help me stand up on my own 2 feet again.. a cheerful blender emerges.
i am counting to the day when a whole new cheerful blender the pineapple.. smiling and cheerful.. free from the hurt. but when will the day come? on the day when i die?
P.S i'm not scolding anyone. please do not get me wrong. this are just words from the bottom of my heart.